Stuff that has been going on

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Denspressure

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Stuff that has been going on
« on: April 04, 2019, 12:58:25 PM »
You need to know my mind is highly twisted and chaotic place. My head is at the whims of uncontrollable thoughts. At all times there are (created) voices and worlds hammering down on my senses. These usually come from shows, series, TV, games, conspiracy crap and other entertainment universes that keep playing in my imagination, even after I turned off the source. The characters and worlds continue to have their way with me and my own characters.

I am highly unstable emotionally.

At least I am not hallucinating my brain chimeras into the real world. But these amalgamations have made me being unable to focus on hobbies and work. The former being one of the few scapegoats.

 Things can not go on like this.

My human psyche is, perhaps put quite literally, a mealstorm that is swallowing me. It has been getting worse. Perhaps my autism is finally reaching its crescendo. I am afraid medication will prove the best(only) solution out of this mess.

Please stop.
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Re: Stuff that has been going on
« Reply #1 on: April 04, 2019, 01:04:20 PM »
Do you want to talk about something?
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Re: Stuff that has been going on
« Reply #2 on: April 04, 2019, 01:04:53 PM »
Do you want to talk about it? None of us are doctors as far as I know. But sometimes talking about it helps.

Also, don't be afraid to seek help. It's a slow going road but it helps as I understand it.
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Re: Stuff that has been going on
« Reply #3 on: April 04, 2019, 01:05:26 PM »
You need to know my mind is highly twisted and chaotic place. My head is at the whims of uncontrollable thoughts. At all times there are (created) voices and worlds hammering down on my senses. These usually come from shows, series, TV, games, conspiracy crap and other entertainment universes that keep playing in my imagination, even after I turned off the source. The characters and worlds continue to have their way with me and my own characters.

I am highly unstable emotionally.

At least I am not hallucinating my brain chimeras into the real world. But these amalgamations have made me being unable to focus on hobbies and work. The former being one of the few scapegoats.

 Things can not go on like this.

My human psyche is, perhaps put quite literally, a mealstorm that is swallowing me. It has been getting worse. Perhaps my autism is finally reaching its crescendo. I am afraid medication will prove the best(only) solution out of this mess.

Please stop.

Sorry to hear that, but could you be more specific with what and who you want to "Please Stop".  Depending on one's point of view that can mean almost anything.
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That would put you in the same category as pedophile perverts like John Davis, NSS, robots like Stash, Shifter, and victimized kids like Alexey.

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Denspressure

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Re: Stuff that has been going on
« Reply #4 on: April 04, 2019, 01:18:07 PM »
I've always had imaginative universes with beings in my head. I could stare into nothingness for hours, just imaging characters in different environments interacting with each other. Entire movie scenarios. I used to love this. One major outlet was roleplay with other people on websites. For as long as I can remember my presence on the internet, I engaged in this way with people.

But only when I wanted to, and I could stop the thoughts when I desired.

I think, about one and a half years ago, this has been happening without my consent. At all times, it feels like part of my concentration, mind and energy is being occupied by this. The last few months have been especially bad, sometimes I feel like my head is exploding, as I can no longer handle this omnipresent noise. I broke down a few times in tears, my colleagues were are getting annoyed because I can't focus and do my work right. Today has been the worst case. I had a good talk with some people from work, that helped.

Music and photography calm me the most, clear my mind allow me to focus.
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Re: Stuff that has been going on
« Reply #5 on: April 04, 2019, 01:23:02 PM »
Dr NSS, what's your opinion? Troll, or not?

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Re: Stuff that has been going on
« Reply #6 on: April 04, 2019, 01:25:38 PM »
Dr NSS, what's your opinion? Troll, or not?

Denspressure is no troll. He's been around for years. He's a good hombre.
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Re: Stuff that has been going on
« Reply #7 on: April 04, 2019, 01:26:16 PM »
Dr NSS, what's your opinion? Troll, or not?
Just trying to talk about something that has been increasingly bothersome for me.
Maybe it will help to talk with random people on the internet.
I will be going to bed now. I have been trying to get into bed earlier the last few weeks so thats good. yesterday it took me an hour to fall asleep, I just cou;n't find peace.
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Re: Stuff that has been going on
« Reply #8 on: April 04, 2019, 01:40:51 PM »
Dr NSS, what's your opinion? Troll, or not?

Denspressure is no troll. He's been around for years. He's a good hombre.

Unless he's been building up your trust for the ULTIMATE TROLL!!!!!
(It's possible)


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Re: Stuff that has been going on
« Reply #9 on: April 04, 2019, 01:42:06 PM »
Dr NSS, what's your opinion? Troll, or not?

Denspressure is no troll. He's been around for years. He's a good hombre.

Unless he's been building up your trust for the ULTIMATE TROLL!!!!!
(It's possible)
You have made me smile today, I do suppose that is good.
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Re: Stuff that has been going on
« Reply #10 on: April 05, 2019, 12:04:45 AM »
Have you talked to a doctor?
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Re: Stuff that has been going on
« Reply #11 on: April 05, 2019, 12:38:53 AM »
I've always had imaginative universes with beings in my head. I could stare into nothingness for hours, just imaging characters in different environments interacting with each other. Entire movie scenarios. I used to love this. One major outlet was roleplay with other people on websites. For as long as I can remember my presence on the internet, I engaged in this way with people.

But only when I wanted to, and I could stop the thoughts when I desired.

I think, about one and a half years ago, this has been happening without my consent. At all times, it feels like part of my concentration, mind and energy is being occupied by this. The last few months have been especially bad, sometimes I feel like my head is exploding, as I can no longer handle this omnipresent noise. I broke down a few times in tears, my colleagues were are getting annoyed because I can't focus and do my work right. Today has been the worst case. I had a good talk with some people from work, that helped.

Music and photography calm me the most, clear my mind allow me to focus.

disclosure I dont know you in real life, and I am certainly not a doctor or qualified to talk about doctorie things. I am just a random guy on the internet.

But you quite possibly have ADHD. Its common in children, but it supposed to fade out when you get older.

I have the same thing, my mind is always spinning with ideas and thoughts that make it near impossible to focus.
It would never stop, meaning that I could not sleep either. I had to go for a 8km jog every morning at 4am after an entire night of not sleeping so that I can come home and be tired enough to get SOME sleep before school. I used to literally be afraid of going to sleep, because it was a terrible experience for my whole life.

2 solutions out there as I see it
1 - Get yourself tested and enjoy the fuzzy feeling from all the drugs that WILL be prescribed to you. (I dont suggest this)

2 - Get clear of the internet. This includes facebook, this place, reddit, wikipedia, ANY SOCIAL MEDIA. All of it.
Replace those with reading real books written by people who thought about what they where writing about, doing hobbies, sport, learn a skill. For every 500 posts you have here, you can equate that to about 1 real life skill you could have learnt.

What I found was that the internet over stimulates my mind. There is too much "new" information, so my brain got used to jumping ideas all the time. You never need to hold one idea in your mind for too long here. Think about how FB, twitter or any other "social media" app works. You get quick bites of information by continuously scrolling down, it never ends, and your brain is begging for the next "exciting" picture/post/headline. You never need to focus.

This carries over when you need to function in real life, your brain wants to jump ideas all the time. And if you have the ability to get lost in thought as I do, your mind will go there if it gets a bit bored of the current situation.

This is what I try to do. I have clearly relapsed these last few days, because I am here now.
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Re: Stuff that has been going on
« Reply #12 on: April 05, 2019, 01:26:12 AM »
Hey denspressure let's talk about it, we have always had good conversations. I know you are different than most, so am I. Let's have a conversation friend
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Re: Stuff that has been going on
« Reply #13 on: April 05, 2019, 01:28:18 AM »
If you need help contact me.
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Re: Stuff that has been going on
« Reply #14 on: April 05, 2019, 11:32:55 PM »
OK, fun and games has ended.

Start reading here. It's only a few posts until we realize
we have an ass hole infestation.

https://www.theflatearthsociety.org/forum/index.php?topic=80523.msg2162641#msg2162641


Feel free to PM me. (within a day, or I'll take control.)

I am not going to let this go.
I've been there myself.



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Re: Stuff that has been going on
« Reply #15 on: April 07, 2019, 11:01:51 AM »
Hey guys,

Just replying here to let you know things are better. I got to use most of my weekend to relax, listen to music, have a few good beers, and watch some marvelous film recordings made in the 1890's and early 1900 of daily street life. All those combined allowed me to process many of the thoughts I was having. This really cleared up my mind.

I want to clarify, that I did not have suicidal thoughts.

I hope I didn't cause any problems by trying to reach out. When I made the post, I just felt at a total loss, and absolutely NEEDED some kind of communication to distract myself. It helped, and I am thankful to read many kind messages of support and understanding.

Thanks.


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« Reply #16 on: April 07, 2019, 03:03:56 PM »
Glad you're feeling better.
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Re: Stuff that has been going on
« Reply #17 on: April 08, 2019, 11:20:38 AM »
You are never causing problems by reaching out for help.
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Re: Stuff that has been going on
« Reply #18 on: April 08, 2019, 11:31:31 AM »
Denspressure,

This probably sounds like basic or almost condescending advice but have you considered unplugging for a few days to see if it helps?  Like camping or something?

Another suggestion I have for you which may or may not be compatible with your lifestyle, take up long distance running. I find that heavy cardio sustained for over an hour really helps calm my mind.
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« Reply #19 on: April 08, 2019, 03:35:38 PM »
You are never causing problems by reaching out for help.

This... especially you denspressure, you are a top bloke.

Denspressure,

This probably sounds like basic or almost condescending advice but have you considered unplugging for a few days to see if it helps?  Like camping or something?

Another suggestion I have for you which may or may not be compatible with your lifestyle, take up long distance running. I find that heavy cardio sustained for over an hour really helps calm my mind.

Sometimes solitude can be the worst action to choose
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« Reply #20 on: April 08, 2019, 03:41:51 PM »

Sometimes solitude can be the worst action to choose

There is that. To be honest the whole camping/going full Amish thing doesn't appeal to me. I'd much rather live in a city like New York than a small town in the middle of nowhere. But maybe it's useful for other people with difference temperaments.
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« Reply #21 on: April 08, 2019, 03:45:25 PM »

Sometimes solitude can be the worst action to choose

There is that. To be honest the whole camping/going full Amish thing doesn't appeal to me. I'd much rather live in a city like New York than a small town in the middle of nowhere. But maybe it's useful for other people with difference temperaments.

I agree some people can benefit from solitude like that.

Though I myself fall in the same category as yourself, that is why I moved to downtown after divorce. About lost my mind in solitude...there are many that are the same.

I guess only denspressure would know what is healthy for him in that instance
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Re: Stuff that has been going on
« Reply #22 on: May 02, 2019, 11:58:52 AM »
I have considered taking a 'break' from the internet many times.

But I can just not bring myself to do it for any significant length of time. I do suppose it is like an addiction.

I just enjoy updating the many threads and projects, too much.
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