"It was my imagination, and in my mind, I believed it. Even now, I believe it."
That's why I'm suggesting you seek out someone to help you get your thoughts under control.
Why are you shit posting and gaslighting so much now?
Also, people say to read that thread and there isn't anything there that is said to be. I followed that thread from the first post. Nor will people quote said posts.
I guess it is gang mentality?