I'm someone who's looked into the flat earth theory for around 3yrs
the majority of flat earth proofs have been irrefutably disproven, I've asked many times what actual proofs are left, to which not many FE's can actually provide one piece of evidence that explains why they still believe
you're someone who has accepted the standard flat earth model has flaws, otherwise you wouldn't have felt the need to create a new theory
I'll go over a few for you (again) :
dome - disproved by the existence of meteors
no curve - disproven by many videos (usually by flat earthers trying to prove no curvature, many show the tops of buildings, unless you're claiming they now build partly underwater)
no satellites - disproven by the many photos of them, by amateurs and professionals
localised sun - disproven by crepuscular sun rays
flat plane - disproven by sun rise/sun set
not a globe - disproven by the lunar eclipse and constellation positions (you can't see the north star from deep in the southern hemisphere)
its not that we don't understand the theory, it's just the theory doesn't work in real life or stand up to any sort of testing or cross examination
when we present the 'irrefutable evidence', we're met with cognitive dissonance (ignoring blatant facts as it doesn't fit your beliefs)
- most flat earthers just deny the evidence, they don't explain why they're denying it, they'll maybe answer 1 or 2 questions, but eventually they either give up or start getting aggressive
- others (yourself included), accept the flat earth theory has major flaws, but for some strange reason, instead of accepting the obvious, decide to simply create a new theory and expect people to believe it.. you cannot personally believe it as you know that you in fact just made it up
so before you start trying to make out us globe earthers do anything other than STAY, and PRESENT TESTABLE EVIDENCE, try to notice the pattern FE's have when presented WITH evidence
the globe has been proven