At the OP since the rest of you are being douches: I always kind of knew in my heart, and I'm still not completely sure, but lack of certainty is mostly due to fear. My attic-roommate Karl is helping me work through some issues right now--helping lead me to the truth, if you will.
I'm trying to remain respect of RE'ers, but it's tough. Respect is what keeps them in their destructive system of beliefs. It's as if their beliefs go down hill, and just keep gaining momentum. It's almost as if they were.....
OH MY GODD