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The Lounge / Coronovirus Roll call
« on: March 23, 2020, 12:36:01 AM »
How's everyone doing in our dystopian future?
This is I think day eight since we're in a soft lock down. I'm in a fortunate spot in most way. My job isn't in danger. I can work from home. And my home happens to be a grotesque mcMansion. I"m stuck listening to my wife lose her mind at her children because they're going nuts staying home all day long.
Despite all this there's something... menacing in the air. It's hard to explain. It sort of feels like English civilians hunkering down for an air raid from the germans. Except it's viruses and a damaged society instead of nazis.
Yesterday I went to an ihop for takeout(don't ask, my kids wanted it). Tumblweeds. Two people there handling the order. I ask where is everyone. She tells me they've all been laid off. I gave her a tip equal to the amount of the meal.
Well that my situation. Solid, no one vulnerable but bearing the weight of a menacing unknown on my mind at all times.
Though I do havll skype video meetings tomorrow most of the day. And... okay I don't know how to convince any of you that I'm not suicidial. But through these meetings I keep fantasizing about killing myself. The process goes like "Oh my God, this other guy just explained this! There's no reason to be here. But I can't leave. And the boredom is causing me physical pain.
Well... I can always just kill myself. And then my shoulder slump and I relax because there's always the cowards way out of meetings. Friends and family might judge me harshly, if they've never been to a 9 hour meeting over skype.
How is everyone else doing?
This is I think day eight since we're in a soft lock down. I'm in a fortunate spot in most way. My job isn't in danger. I can work from home. And my home happens to be a grotesque mcMansion. I"m stuck listening to my wife lose her mind at her children because they're going nuts staying home all day long.
Despite all this there's something... menacing in the air. It's hard to explain. It sort of feels like English civilians hunkering down for an air raid from the germans. Except it's viruses and a damaged society instead of nazis.
Yesterday I went to an ihop for takeout(don't ask, my kids wanted it). Tumblweeds. Two people there handling the order. I ask where is everyone. She tells me they've all been laid off. I gave her a tip equal to the amount of the meal.
Well that my situation. Solid, no one vulnerable but bearing the weight of a menacing unknown on my mind at all times.
Though I do havll skype video meetings tomorrow most of the day. And... okay I don't know how to convince any of you that I'm not suicidial. But through these meetings I keep fantasizing about killing myself. The process goes like "Oh my God, this other guy just explained this! There's no reason to be here. But I can't leave. And the boredom is causing me physical pain.
Well... I can always just kill myself. And then my shoulder slump and I relax because there's always the cowards way out of meetings. Friends and family might judge me harshly, if they've never been to a 9 hour meeting over skype.
How is everyone else doing?
